You May Not Know This, But I'm Still Here

I am an invisible man. No one takes note of me as I stand on the outskirts of the crowds. I admire the people from afar but they never notice me. I am your ordinary teenage boy. I don't stand out much to anyone. People would call me your average teen nerd, if they noticed me that is.

This has been going on for a while now. I've gone to school with the same people, in the same town, never changing in my appearance. Thick glasses sit on top of my nose as my brown curls, or what seem to be curls, jut out. I am just a wallflower. But not how you think. I'm kind of a loner, or so it would seem.

I try to fit in and have people just glance my way. But no, it's never that way. I'm not even the kind of nerd that girls would whisper about because I'm "a geek." Sometimes, I wish even that would happen.

I had a friend once. Her name was Veronica. She was like me. We didn't stand out in a good or bad way, and we we're just your two average teenagers. But unlike ever other "average teenager", we weren't able to make friends easily. But somehow we became friends through this, which if you think about it is quite strange. I can't remember exactly how, like the place, the time, or what happened, but it did.

We were what you called inseparable. Whatever it was, we did it together. Now don't get any wrong ideas here. We were friends, no romantic feelings involved whatsoever. Everything was awesome, but then that day happened.

Veronica was walking over to my house after a fight with her mom. We don't live very far from each other, about 3 blocks away. She had called me and was talking to me, crying, as she was walking over. She was about a block away and then IT happened.

A drunk driver. He didn't see her, or the stop sign while she was crossing the street. I was talking with her, trying to comfort her, and then she went silent. I rushed out to her when she wasn't responding to my voice. I found her lying in the street with her crushed phone a few feet away from her. She was gone. The one thing I had in my life was now gone. FOREVER.

Things have never been the same since. I don't smile as much, I'm not as happy anymore. But I mean who would be? What if your best friend was taken from you in a flash? How would you react?

But, I know Veronica wouldn't want me acting like this. She would tell me, "you must go on..." However, I can't go on. But I'll go on, or at least attempt to, for Veronica's sake.

-Tristan